As I have mentioned numerous times in previous posts, something I often wonder about is how to determine wether I desire to have faith in the Bible because I grew up in it and have a good deal of familiarity with it, or if it is because I genuinely believe it to be true and would still do so had I not grown up in Christianity. I am routinely troubled with this thought, and it often acts as an impediment to my will to believe.
The more I think about it, the more apt I am to retire the search for an answer and just let the journey take it’s course. But that still leaves the voice in my head suggesting that my desire for faith in the God of the Bible is merely a result of the fear of leaving all I’ve known for the majority of my life. This is a disconcerting thought.
So to any of you who have also grown up in Christianity who left the faith for a time, I’m interested to hear about your experience with this if you dealt with it at all. How were you able to get to the point where you felt confident that your belief was indeed real, and not just a return to it for the sake of comfort and familiarity?