For a couple months now, I have been praying that God would give me faith. I want the ability to see the truths of God, and the reality of the Gospel. For the last four years, at least, I haven’t believed. I am still skeptical.
I read Luke 11 today, and came across verses 9-13:
9 “So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks, receives; and he who seeks, finds; and to him who knocks, it will be opened. 11 Now suppose one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? 12 Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? 13 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will yourheavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?”
I feel that I have been doing these things, yet, it seems that I have not yet been given the ability to have faith. So then, how should I properly think about this situation, especially in light of the verses above. Here are some options I have thought of:
- It is not God’s will that I have faith – perhaps I am not one of the elect.
- The element of “God’s timing” is at play here, and it is not yet time for me to be given the gift of faith. The verses above to not specify if there is or is not an element of time involved between the asking and the receiving.
- The God of the Bible isn’t real, otherwise I would have been given the ability to have faith already, so this is proof that it is all made up.
- I actually am receiving what I am asking for, it is just being given slowly over time, so perhaps while others who know me might be able to see evidence of this, at this point in time, I do not.
- I’m not asking properly. Perhaps I don’t know what it means to pray in Jesus’ name, or with authority, or whatever it might be, and therefore my asking is ineffective.
- I do not really understand faith, so I’m not even sure what I’m asking for or what it looks like to receive it.
- Something else?
What do you think? How are we to take situations where we feel we are praying for good things that it seems (to us at least) that God would have no reason to not give. What is a healthy way to view this?